My V Day?

Hi!

I wanted to post something fascinating and brand new. But I am already late talking movies with my frends. Bad for all of us, I know :( I am still working on it! But I so desired to tell you about my v day and while re-reading my sent mail to Ravi and Robert, last night, I could not help but copy paste few paragraphs from the old mail here to make up for my wish to latest post my experience at the V day! So, here is it! Sincere apologies from the single lazy or busy lady! I will give my best not to repeat the same again. With all my love, here is the post! love and write in some comments ;) Hoping that you enjoyed your v days with your loves around.

Well talking about V day, it was just perfect for me. Haunted by the feeling of having been left single I woke up on 13 thinking it to be the V day. With a big heavy heart and sighs, past memoirs, I was protecting myself indoors, wishing all frends V day and just then as I switched on the TV to view Love Express (V day special movies due on star movies) I realise there are no love movies and then I woke up to the 13th Feb :) silly me!

Well on v day! A small political strife accross India by a generous group of pepl that believe V day aint their indian culture came up with threats for lovers all around India mostly in my states and in Bangalore. The Ram sena (a rising political group basically full of religious fanatics) warned to marry all loving couples the moment they are caught aside each other. Here a sorta curfew was in run. Police guarded gift shops and restaurants, parks fearing chaos from another similar group called the Bajrang Dal here in Orissa.

Unlike my prediction today was very comfortable. Because of the threats & violent activities from Bajrang Dal, the streets and lanes of Bhubaneswar were empty, excepting those few single or married men and women that drove to their work including me. The young merry making lovers were nowhere to be seen. What pity and sadness! I might not have been engaged or have ever had a boy friend all these years, willingly spending all my V days alone, but it always pleased my heart to watch the young lovers meet and smile under the sun with handful of gifts. Today it was another plain empty day like every other day. In a way it gave me some security though, an opportunity to survive through the day (Looking at the couple might have embarrassed me thinking how I have been sigled out in this whole merry making lovers world)

It was second saturday for mom and so she stayed at home preparing a heavy breakfast for me as always, too much of sugary love wanting to patch up the week’s sour times. I left for Jayadev but there were no classes. I stayed back for sometimes and while I had other plans, Jayanti called me up! She wanted to buy a gift for her beloved friend. I gladly agreed and we went to several stores and showrooms and finally she got her watch and I got one gold coated wrist watch for mom too, which I gifted her for valentines day. I believe though, she might have appreciated it more had it been gifted by my brother. Late afternoon, I and my frend ate out at a nice restaurant. Early evening I spent in watching some wonderful romantic and comedy movies on star movies and meanwhile I gave mom her gift and we enjoyed sweets togather that I specially bought for her. She was smiling. I am happy :)

Life goes much beyond the forbidden sweetest fruit love. Man and wife have to work hard, think more with their minds rather than being decisive from the heart, be more emotionally and morally stronger so that they can be good morale for their kids too and world in the end. Be strong and wishing you love happinessa and fulfillment in life. love Dharitri

V-day love

Here comes V-Day, the beautiful valentines day :)

I was asked about my plans on V-Day. It’s special and no wonder I will make sure to surround myself and others with love and affection :)

Like everyone else, I will like to spend the entirity of my time alongside my loved ones :) My friends and family, who have always been a great support through all years long! It makes me happy to see you all smiling, celebrating our joys and achievements :)

Unlike the most popular Indian notion, that goes spending the whole day aside your loverboy is not it’s (V-day’s) prerogative. What a waste!

Go out! Buy in roses of red, pink, yellow and blue. Surprise your spouse, friends and relatives. Purchase a gift for that little cousin of yours and treat your favorite aunt & uncle at the pizzahut ;) Make them feel special and loved! Or may be a visit to your grandma! Tell them how hard life wud have been in their absence, how pleasing a moment have they always made it for you. Thank them for their devotion, love, kindness and cooperation, for standing by you, for their inspiration and courage :)

That’s how V-day shud be! Perfectly filled with love for everyone.

And last but not least, do you not forget to Thank God for this day and for the love He fills you with. For the wonderfully lovable & kind beings that He maketh us :) Thank Him for You and I, for this beautiful world and the wonderful day! Thank Him cos He loves You too!

Love and Be Loved.
Blessings

Here’s a poem by me :)
love,
me

Love and be loved!

You are my only Angel,
That doth love me.
Love me more,
when no one doth love .

Love me like a friend,
And love like Angel from heaven.
Thou art me blessing.
My Everything.

My friend,
I do treasure you.
And your Love.
And every small thing that you do.

May the Good Lord Protect you,
Be with you.
In everywhere that You are.
Love with whoever you are.

Cos that will be a glimpse,
Of the Love that I do save for thee.
And the Happiness to live inside,
Blessed to be for all eternity.

Thank you for being with me,
In Good and in bad!
To have held me in your arms,
In happy and in sad.

Wishing you joyous times,
And a smile that shines.
Now and tomorrow,
And for every tearful day of mine.

Tell me, Life is beautiful.
Life is love,
Love that cometh from thee
Is the love of God.

Love is God
With someone Godlike you.
Should be the only love
That I knew.

Love that He doth save.
For me and for you.
For our today,
And the days thereafter.

Love always
Love for all eternity.
Love till we have love all around
Love till our breath does end!

Love with all your heart,
And love with every breath.
Beautifying my life,
And those that lay around!

With every touch from thee.
Shall liven my each day.
To believe in Love
And to believe in God!

Just nothing

The PDTDM 6th batch, no doubt, had been a matter of utter annoyance. But I and my God were quick and that was fast to shift, giving place to new learning for new line of beheviours and frame better strategies, while taking every care, that the same do not repeat themselves.

Our very beloved Optimist was with me all this time. Thank you for your support. Appreciated for pumping in all the optimism in right on time.

And a message this afternoon, look at it.

‘If you ever feel like or think of coming to heaven, remember, the pathway to heaven is very dangerous and difficult.As you cross each step… you will reach the gate to heaven.’

Oh really! And the who the Hell are ya? God? Sympathies, urgh! They sure are not what I need! Be a friend to me. I hope you know how you can be one or you wud still want my intructions in becoming one. And must you still enquire how I must walk my way to heaven.

‘Inside CTTC, we are T&S but outside, we are friends.’

I don’t remember if I have signed a deal.

Well, I might have failed, I may have been defeated and I might have not been very successful, but I have not stop trying though. I am working and working big and hard to make things easy and winning as much as possible. I shud rather doing my M.Phil course, they acknowledge the essence of learning and relearning, theorising and prepare the right dessert at the right time in the very right way. They give ample chance to fail for me to  succeed in the end :)

All the while, I must have been unfortunate, not to have met one who dare stand in front of me. It is you, my dear student that is to take up the job interview not me. As of me, I have already earned mine :) So, who do you think is in heaven, then? 

None of my classes were a failure as such. Nevertheless, I accept I have had a hard time dealing with the boys. Was it because I was a feminine instructer. I am still working upon my skills!

Two of my mentors were lecturers from a women’s college, very brilliant, impressive and very demanding too. I am yet to meet someone that succeds in dealing with a class of male chauvinism successfully that too with her very feminine skills. Possible? You think so? If not, I will make one! That shud not look a very big challange. A much of space and privacy would be much appreciated from you.

And Debashis at Jayadev this morning.

‘If the student fair, thou art responsible. If the student is an utter failure, the teacher is responsible. If the student aint attend class, You are to be held up for all his shortcomings.’

What the.. Have I become God. No, it being so, not right! I have little control over what the student doth in his life once he is done with my class. Yes, in creating the interest, the teacher has a great role to play. For the same, one need be self restraining and should be free enough in their area of operation, in terms of decision making, framing strategies, planning their lessons and infrasturucture that should come from the institute itself, innovation would be mine anyways. Most important, ample scope be given to the teacher to expand and update their knowledge, be open to myriad new educative experiences and not to forget the basic essence of all, time and space be offered too. What can mean having apt time and space these days, are a good work environment, a very enthusiastic and inspiring mentor plus friendly, cooperating co-workers. That is my idea of an ideal place of working.

Is it gonna be heaven then? The path looks difficult? I am not difficult yet? :)  Yes! I love teaching anyway and have my own style of dessipating information. I cannot be you and sure do not agree if the teacher be alleged for what the student perform. A sudent is open to influences from his parents, friends, people around. How much time do you think he spends alongside the teacher? Aggreeably enough, a teacher plays a major part of them all though. I will try my best. Happy now! You win! Yay! bah! Why have I been so complaining? Confused still :(  Not very expert that I am, I should definitely look to opinions as such.

Meanwhile, Good luck to you student on your career! May God bless you.

Scrambled!

I wrote long many things. Him wanted mine to be silent. Off it did go :)

 

Quiet. I will retry, again!

 

So!

 

It rained in AP. Ritri was raining tears. No wonder Orissa was cloudy!

 

The last time it happened, I remember how the disturbances caused me into one roadside accident. This time, it did. A little minor one though, injured, scratched my knees. Again? On my way, a brief chat onto the Good God! Robert! Yes, wishes from you too! Worked! In a way, it was a small one. Hurt heart, then though :(

 

See how they disturb Ritri so much, SO MUCH! All what is wished for is peace, left alone, peace and some space and time, to heal the wound, a Wounded Knee and soul too? ‘I will be alright’ :)

 

Students, crazy! Men? I hate. I do. Not Nash, not ever! An angel :)

 

Pretending to be happiest? Tired now! Of the drama! Shakespeare? Story telling day, students exploit, rape, of me and my feelings, kind and tender. Faculty openly harassed!

 

Colleague soothes: One wrong choice can ruin all virtues.

 

Choice? CTTC was a decision. You, too were, a decisive choice, friend or so, I thought. Now, no wonder play! Tired are you, of plays? Are you not?

 

Choice has a choice to choose you. But Ritri, ‘the hottest girl in the world’, is loaded with choices, awaited by, welcomed and adorned, the adoraborealis, hath opportunities to her wait. Those were the times, she had little to work for, just debate and argue, win and defeat but now, work! So much with work and life, for life and for a marvellous living, I am. With help from friends, the optimist, Nash and up above, HIM!

 

And the fabled hot man at CCD, I hope I don’t get to see you again, nowhere. Cause there are so many, and that needed me too LoL my cares.

 

Love to the cute somebody that would be possessive, at the Pizza corner, the Pizza hut, and ‘the paradise’ about me (Protective of me from the lustful prying eyes) Paradise, of course, right where you would be, it should be. Take me to one. ‘Khabar nahi – Got to be love ‘because it’s really got me going’ Is it? And Sam? Always! Love undone, but someone to fill the uncompleted man, should be there. Prayers!

 

Cousin is marrying on 9^{th December}. The new Jijs look so much alike my brother. Brothers :) loved and cared for. You are beautiful :) Blessings for your good life.

 

I asked for a permit, if I can, go, out, with you. Carrying along with a lot of love, saving right inside and ‘neath my heart while spurt the same in a little tenderly cosy hug and sweetest kisses. Not sleeping! Trust me! Not? I have been loving, someone, for me. Mine. Not letting go. Midnights for me! Do you not addict, me, nor leave, like he!

 

I have been in love though have not said so, of late. Is someone still out there?

 

Thanks Nithin. For you, poems, broken yet fulfilling, which have got me writing? Really! And enduring the awesome feeling inside and love, to caress :)

 

Amanat Ali, his classical, Paki voice, amazes, steals and melts too. Dostana? There, it is! ‘Maula maula’

 

Putul, I have not forgotten you. The class and awkward life, which I have been fighting hard with, to restore ‘em, with the smiles. From me and you :) (missing you so bad)

 

So much in need, tears just for now though, makes me happy too. Saving all the best classics for you, Roop :) so much alike that great voice. Blessings for you and prosperity, happiness and love too :)

 

Do you see, how have you been and what is that maketh my day? So the very loved one, thanks for all your loving cheers! Blessings and a very long life for thee. Ameen (as you accent)

 

So, that is how life is, in brief, in clutters and in scrambled words. In the nothings that reply to your often proposed query, ‘how has life been?’

 

So, how has life been?

For you?

Smile, for me..

A 2, 3 4-5.. months back, I thought how badly I miss a frend! frantically Ange writes a mail to every of her friend.

I am somone who would not want to keep in wait for somthing or Some one to make her happy promise her of a land of all her fairy wonders.

She stopped cos she understood,
frends are busy too.
To Scale dreams of their own
Work to make ‘em come true :)

She did understand
Happiness lies
Not in promises nor men
‘neath her heart
that inside doth cries
cry till the corner of my smile ache
Ache until I know wher doth joy sleep
Sleep so I have reasons miles
to wake you up
Tell, how much I love thou
love so I can share thee
with ones that doth cry
Cry cos they were naive
Of the mysterious working of the world

World that look so high
Full of lie
Look open,
It is beautiful!

You are,
And the smile of mine
Take one
Give one :)

Let the world live once the tiny genuine smile from you. Let the lying world live one true joy. Will you not promise me of one? – Your world, D

Ange found her smiles back in the cackles from her lil neighbour as she filmed to her the images of cats of many coloured. May thy smile live on, Amen! I love me, D

Someone to love

Here I am again. Alone and crying. I do not have a flu but my nose is blocked already. And I would really wanna cry more and more, till I can tell myself, ‘this is how things going to be and yes, this is how they would be.. for a long time from now, they would be. But I would not promise, promise not to cry!

 

My brother has stopped speaking to me. And no word of optimism, kindness shall heal the pain that I am carrying.

 

‘You are the one blessed,

To have found love!

Love and contentment,

Someone to love and live your world

And charm your dreams.

 

I am here still

Alone and crying

Smiling still,

With tears in my eyes

 

You have found yourself love

I have none.

I am not seeking one

But still alone!

 

Waiting for a right someone

I am!

For someone to come and take me away

Drift far off from the pain that I live

 

For someone to come

And Love,

Me!

For the person that I truly am

Demanding not of calibre insane

Nor of a persona I can barely fit in.

 

Someone to aspire and inspire

The successes and ambition in me

Someone to live our dreams,

Dreams of love and breath free!

 

Someone to come and tell

‘that things gonna be fine when I am with thee

Cry not more, my love

For we have dreams enchanting to see’

 

I am here still

Alone and crying

Smiling still,

With tears in my eyes

 

But I know there is someone

Someone to love,

for my love!’

 

Ritri’s abode

Lonly and Queer?

Life is Lonely and queer,
People say, why don’t have a smile to cheer?
The one I loved has left me forever,
So i killed my smile to have alone my tears to wear!

Life is challange and I am learning still :)

New week on the start

Hi everyone. A very good morning and I am wishing you a great start with the week!

 

I woke up with a flu in my nose. There were inspirations lined up ‘neath the optimists’ scraps. Assured enough, that things are going to be fine anyway. It is the way I am going to have to choose to feel, right?

 

Days back, I had already made the profound discovery. ‘A bad day isn’t a bad day after all, but just a bad feeling, which too, will pass in order to give place to happier and merrier ones.’ Yes! That’s right.

 

Not many a great things, this morning to blog about. Sure enough, the week is a challenging one and awaits me as much as I have the whole month.

 

Yesterday, as my plan was, I did go shopping again, though later was too busy to find time to sleep. Thankfully it was pretty packed, even on Sunday and I was busy too (can’t believe, sleeping beauty ain’t sleep!).

 

Early afternoon I went shopping with my brother’s girl friend. I don’t think, she is a very favourite of mine though she helped me to choose some great suit pieces. I know and have always acknowledged, light shades for my wardrobes. Why can’t people take this in? And then, ‘I think you should fetch some saris’ WTH and why? I am working now and my career desires a more sophisticated and outgoing persona than just someone homely, cute, and sweet and tradition bound. ‘And yes, instead, of the pleats, it would be better, if you are leaving it open or later wrap the kanhi around! That goes very well with little overweight people’ But hey again, I am not obese! And I am not so horribly ugly. Moreover, beauty, I believe, comes not from one’s shape and sizes, but in one’s attitudes and feelings toward one’s self! ‘That I amply have’ I have loved and had been with myself, all through the years, Through THICK and THINS! I do not regret a thing about me and the places where I need to change, I already am working a way out. And glad that I am getting in regular touch with some very optimistic souls that not only are living a blessed carefree higher life but also are humble enough to inspire the rest of us around. I pretended not taking in her comments seriously, I didn’t want to lose my brother again and would not want a conflict with mom on relationships either.

 

Late afternoon, I dropped mom at the regional science centre for her teacher’s training program and myself at my Aunt’s house. There I was, at the right time, right place and my favourite chicken curry too :) Waiting for me! Two hours later, Mom joined us too, for a tea and gossips, while I went for a nap. By the time, I woke, it was already 6 evening and I missed my music class. When we reached home, we received the cd that my music teacher had left for us to listen. It was a sample of our recording at the studio, where we did chorus sing! They were good and some of them precisely were very good! Late evening, I finished all my work at the PC and decided to go early to bed. I spent some time with myself self talking and was feeling great.

 

Here I am today and Shopping is again there in the to-do list of today. Yay, to that! I have class and I will be teaching leadership and personality.

 

Tomorrow’s worrying me a bit again. I am not doing anything to prepare myself for the big event. God bless, me. Praying and hoping still. Let’s see. The day is still not over yet and I want to make some big changes today, too! Happy news J Yes! Keeping hopeful and working as well. May God bless you and give you all, a very wonderful week. Thank you, Dharitri

Reading more, thanks to wordpress :)

Hi,

how are you all, this morning?

 

I have been reading numerous blog posts. I read about the sermons from Mathew, about Christianity, Muslims and Islam, the great festival of Ramadan, cultural baggage and constraints and life in general and in person also.

 

The world is full of beautiful people. The wordpress blogging is packed with similar creative thinking good souls. Am I being misdirected?

 

I am enjoying my read and would want to continue reading more, so, I get informed and updated as well while wait to updating you, at the same time ;)

 

Everyone must read more and more, to gain greater insights, wipe their unintelligence, make less bad judgements and shun blind faiths. Everyone needs to grow big and well enough, aspiring for a happier, peaceful and successful living everyday; you deserve it and definitely own the right to. So, I recommend everyone should read!

I can see the same growth in the number of some very wonderfully gifted writers at the quickie, but it’s rather small, looking to the infancy of the application. Alas! But for all those, that have offered us with great insights, by happily sharing some of their won’ fully beautiful thoughts and experiences, great decisions and inspired living, please and must, that’s a request, urge and a humble asking, blog the same at wordpress or blogspot and rather be kind enough to make it available for us all ignorant and arrogant, knowledge seekers.

I am enjoying my time with the wordpress and finding it so much better than the blogspot. Its wide range of template excites me! Being not a very good computer literate, I still like to wonder how they post such lovely templates and thus, making their blogs look a little out of the crowd and so uniquely special! I too wish to give my blogs a piece of that charming identity of mine, through self owned images and profound photography J Amen to all my wishes, hoping that He is listening still.

Anyways, I should be off now for some hardcore reading. And here is a magnificent quote from Barry, for you all, my friends

‘Good judgement comes from experiences and experiences come from bad judgement!’

So fear not in having some naïve yet very great experiences. It is a beautiful, beautiful world and a beautiful day, for you and me, full of opportunies and hopes. Chase them all and live all your dreams for free J and always remember, no matter where and how you are, ‘God Loves You’. So, see you soon and wishing you all, a very happy and successful day. Love, Dharitri J

A debate

Good morning everyone,

 

Yesterday, it was group discussion with the 2^nd year DTDM batch students. And I had a wholesome experience. It wasn’t something new, but as always different from all others too! My group consisted of 20 boys and three pretty looking cute girls. It was time for clash of the classes. Yes, it was! And I was voluminously speaking on myriad number of topics. From female education to communalism to the miserable state of Indian hockey to gender discriminations within a work place and so on.

 

The most difficult challenge was to accommodate with a small group of students that were adamant, arrogant, angry, abusive and under informed + a wrong attitude too :( I did all my best to give them the right information, think in terms of progress and higher goals of the nation, life in person, unity, equality, democracy but no success to the extent yet.

 

The group was against women’s sexual freedom, financial freedom and openly voiced support to communal riots citing the great example to the recent incidents in Kandhamal. The fear of losing dominance, sense of insecurity, threat to their work & professional lives was clearly visible. And I am reminded of the exciting debate on ‘The Lounge’ probing if it’s getting tougher for men? All of us would agree, the T.V series was regulated and arguments well channelled in order to avoid the necessary inconveniences of the clash of ideas. But I am in a class and there are no one to regulate but our own individual conscience. It gave an insight too to the actuality of Indian patriarchical minds, beliefs and rage. I will take both topics, in sequence.

 

Not very surprisingly, a part of the boys expressed their demand for their lost rights, by challenging feminine higher education. Few of them believed that, highly educated women tend to be more career oriented and hence often neglect family, which according to the social norms is wrong and should and must be discouraged. I understand how hard it is to become a Mom, for most men to fit in well enough into the role! It’s a challenge women had been happily shouldering all this time. Wasn’t THAT bold?

 

On the other hand women are giving in their financial, personal and sexual rights in exchange for a higher position in some corporate offices. They are smart and intelligent and are aware well enough, what sells where best! But in the process, they may lose peace, health and eventually their free and happier life too. It looks difficult. But for some it’s a price which they would willingly pay in order to gain a bit extra freedom. But let me make things bit more clear again. Not all women sell sex in exchange of a better opportunity (some of them do to secure them a better career and few others are just falling into traps), but let alone I would say, only few unintelligent ones do and that too, alone to some of the most incompetent bosses, both of which are not going to stick around in the long run of organisational prosperity. We also have some very talented men and women working hard and winning at the same time, and yes, not at the cost of sex but true potential, intelligence and hard work too. Our globalised society believes in progress and progress alone, and chooses to weigh pure talent than any bias or discrimination. Cheers all! For we are all here, living in a free & opportunistic world.

 

After years of struggle, women are securing themselves, political, economic and to some extent sexual freedom too. Why cannot most of us accept this? You would, once you start viewing your female peers not as a mere woman, the usual conceptions carrying the connotations like the embodiment of purity, beauty and kindness but rather as actual human beings. Humane enough to be free in all spheres from all bondage, access equal opportunities, while sustaining life in a biasfree progressive world. Everyone has the right to be free, and access to equal opportunities and thereby, lead and destine a happy and free life for themselves.

 

In a small, quiet, peaceful state like Orissa, communal riots, terrorist and naxalite activities are rare and meagre in numbers and occurances, but one single instance is enough to shake the entire socio-political scenery. State communal party activities are also on the rise. Hartals, bandhs and strikes are becoming more frequent. But I can ensure, a major part of us still appreciate of us being a peace loving people and successfully choose not to align or relate ourselves to any of these anti-secularist  secessionist activities and groupings. Again, I would want to assert, the same does not and would never categorise any of us as anti religious!

 

All of us must understand and agree that communalism and religion are two different fields, while one is destructive, the other, constructive. And I would again want to confirm, religion unites us while communalism disunites. The two must never be confused with one another. Religion is not equal to communalism. And religion is also not equal to science either. While religion and science are the two sides of the same coin, communalism becomes the colourless moisture that corrodes the coin.

 

Communalism results from the practicability of a communal ideology. To quote Bipin Chandra, ‘Communalism is an ideology based on the belief that the Indian society is divided into religious communities, whose economic, political, social and cultural interests diverge and are even hostile to each other because of their religious differences. As an ideology it is akin to racialism, anti-semitism and fascism and is considered as the Indian form of fascism. The basic thrust of communalism is the spread of communal ideas and modes of thought.’ It IS a religion of different kind, that preaches bloodshed and power acquisition at the cost of the innocent lives of a million and is basically designed to feed in the selfish motives of a small group of people, we recommend addressing as the fundamentalists! After all, Marx was justified enough to quote, ‘Religion is the opium of the masses!’ True!

 

Similarly, science and religion operate excellently in their own separate fields and must not be confused as one for the other. Science alone cannot guarantee development and neither can religion, single handedly. Each needs the other to fill in their lacunae and reach a common goal called development.

 

The question whether Science believes in God is wrong and cannot be answered in a mere yes and no. Science has proven the existence of the spirits though but must not do anything that challenges mass belief system in miracles, supernatural and supranatural existence. If science forms the body, religion becomes the soul. All of us must understand here clearly, that One is incomplete without the other or rather is dead and devoid of any life and hence, meaning. Atheists are disbelievers in God, not in religion and still uphold a certain unique belief of their own. Now we cannot regard all atheists as scientists. Can we? And their unique belief is their religion.

 

Science may not believe in God, but scientists do! Scientists are humane enough to align themselves to a particular set of belief, faith. Human beings are not dead robots, but walking, talking, merry making individuals too and would always seek faith in order for a happier, blissful, integrative and a holistic sustenance of their lives.

 

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