My father is looking for a suitable boy, for himself. The Indian marriages, and the most important thing that counts is, not heart match, soul match, or status match but horoscopes match and everything else just falls into place. Though, I have ample examples to site, horoscope matched marriages are a wreck in themselves.
Inside, I am scared and insecure, fearing I will be sold to some rich household as a slave. As much as I have known myself over the years, I am a peace loving person, independent working, caring and sensitive person. I give up a little of my freedom in order to avoid a war. I am compromising as long as I know I am not in some blind bondage.
My marriage is a big event in my life. Not because of the many reasons for why most people celebrate weddings. It holds altogether a different connotation. A marriage symbolises my key to freedom, and fulfilment of my career goals, personally and professionally as well.
I convinced my timid self with this conviction. No matter where I will be, remember one thing. I will still be me and God will still be God. And so, I promised to be happy from now on, no matter what. I visualised, what could be the worse that could happen. I will be in bondage or I may break free. No matter what, God will be with me and I am sure it will be for good.
My parents decide for me and have least concern about my personal choices. Dear God, I am taking it as your wish. Do whichever you think is right. I am entirely at your disposal.
